"Hey, you never know."
In my life, I am currently playing 2 lotteries (well, 2 that involve numbers, anyway). #637160 is my entry number for the NYC Half-Marathon in March and #673422 is my entry number for the 2011 NYC Full next November. It will be 2-3 months before I know if get a spot in either.
I am trying to come to terms with this whole process. Obviously, it has to be done, but I am not a big fan. While there's that part of me that believes we end up with the experiences we are meant to have, I still want the opportunity to run. Please?? I know I can get involved with a charity as I did last year, but, it would also be nice to know that I am just "in."
After giving my inner control-freak a hug and telling her it's all going to be okay, I choose to put the energy forward that I WILL get in and then just let it go...surrendering it to the Goddesses, who are (literally) always on my side.
On the same day I was pondering all this lottery nonsense, I received an email from Pretzel City Sports (a group that puts on wacky, fun and challenging trail races in PA), advertising their Thanksgiving weekend "Dirty Bird" 15K trail run. In big bold letters, it reads, "NO ENTRY LIMIT!!" I had to smile at the irony.
I haven't even signed up yet, but I'll make the drive to be at that trail race and, next year, I might be running through the concrete jungle. As much as I love to do one, I love to do the other more. As much as I appreciate the low-key trail run, I get intoxicated on the energy of the city. As much as I embrace the the changing terrain and scenery of the trails, I enjoy the consistency of the pavement and running in the shadows of skyscrapers. It's the yin and the yang, the fire and the water, the balance, and I just love, love, love that I get to experience it all, even if I have to take some chances to get there.